Amanda H

andshesperfect @ 2008-07-26T00:50:00

2008-07-26T04:57:20Z

i've been thinking lately about what we used to be
what together we were
about the irreplaceable friendship made to never fade away
a promise we made that maybe we didnt keep
i'm trying to understand what happened and i know exactly what it was
it was maturing and living
moving on and stepping out on our own
finding ourselves without one another
maybe it worked
maybe we've matured
maybe we're ready
to live our life
maybe its time to talk
maybe its time for friendship
maybe its stepping stones
its time to fight what i've been fighting and surrender into what's been eating at me
i'm here to talk
here to listen
here to be there whenever you need a friend.

maybe not the best... but still for fucking forever.

andshesperfect @ 2008-07-19T02:00:00

2008-07-19T06:16:37Z

i'm finding myself awake tonight
i've drank 5 cups of coffee loaded with cream and sugar.
i'm not making sense anymore.

i feel like i have become someone i never imagined possible
like i've lost my ground and fallen into someone else's footsteps
i want to be organized
i'm happy with my situations in life right now.
i'm closer to my mom and dad more than ever before. my mom is my best friend.
my brother... well he hates me. maybe he has every reason to. maybe he needs to look past change. who knows.

i wish i could get a sign to tell me if i'm doing right or wrong.
i wish someone could just open up and tell me something.

ashley is great. she reminds me completely of the person who used to be my best friend. and thats the truth. i see lauren in her so much and thats why i'm tending to lean on her. i trust her.
vince is the love of my life truly. things are so great. i have a promise ring. its a true promise i want to make. i love him. and because i want a future with him, why should i move out now? i wont be able to save any money and i know this because of ms. morgan's budget. i eventually want a house and a marriage and a family... i dont have to live with him now because i could make my future plans become more and more in the future.
my mom is everything. she's my support and my guidance right now in life. she's the reason i push myself everyday.
grandpa homer isn't doing very good. it scares me. i cant lose him. he's my last grandparent left.
daddy is daddy. he's stubborn as all hell and he's a pain in my ass all the time, but he's also the reason i'm here with so much that others don't get to enjoy.

i watched my own grandpa take his last breath on my 18th birthday. it hurt. not everyone wants to plan their grandpa's funeral on their 18th birthday, but i did. i really needed to get that out. i never imagined what watching someone take their last breath was like. heartwrenching. only word to describe it. overwhelming even works.

i'm getting lazy. summer does this to me. i have so much i need to accomplish and i'm not doing any of it.
i have a shopping problem. i feel like i've had everything handed to me my whole life and i have no real value of money
its true. my car. my job.
i need to be responsible. i need respect. i need love. i need hope.
i've been spending wayyy to much money this summer and it needs to stop now. it will. i'm promising myself now

i am strong.

andshesperfect @ 2007-11-11T13:19:00

2007-11-11T18:24:39Z

i didnt call because my brother got a DUI

i still dont wanna talk yet

i'm too pissed off.

andshesperfect @ 2007-10-10T14:33:00

2007-10-10T18:37:19Z

its not over.

forever, right?

bffff

andshesperfect @ 2007-07-19T01:27:00

2007-07-19T05:41:20Z

today was a great day
i truly had a good feeling for most of the day.

so this morning i went online and bought concert tickets for this friday
my mom said i could only go if it was with vince or daniel, jeff or brandon
and dan, jeff, and brandon dont wanna see country
so i went to work and suprised vince.
i said "hey do you think you can hold onto these for me?"
Rascal Flatts and Jason Aldean at the palace
i'm excited. i need to get my camera back from jamae though
so vince got all goofy eyed and stared and said "what is it"
"oh just concert tickets for rascal flatts and jason aldean.. yeah this friday we are going"
and it worked out perfect cause we both arent sceduled to work friday
he thanked me so much and was just so giddy and happy
well then i walk into the waitress aisle to get a drink and Alisha tells me that I won $100.00 from the gem and diamond thing
i couldnt believe i won
i wen tot gem and diamond and picked up my check for 100.00 to AMANDA HOMER :)
the concert tickets were 160.00
and they arent very good seats but me and vince are excited.
and i get paid on friday
i'm so excited and happy.

today was great.

andshesperfect @ 2007-03-25T12:20:00

2007-03-25T16:21:55Z

my entries will now be only friends only.

andshesperfect @ 2007-01-28T14:45:00

2007-01-28T19:46:19Z

what did i do wrong?

Haircut.

2006-11-27T20:25:55Z

you like?

p.s. Ally G i tried to leave you a comment but my computer is effed up and i cant go to your page right now.
i just gotta do a virus scan which will take like 2 hours. :(

Only a few of the reasons why you are my best friend.

2006-10-18T17:13:35Z

We've had our rough times these years, but we always manage to get through them.

Our dreams of court, graduation, college, apartment, future plans... together.

The Book.

Skittles, taste the rainbow.

Jeff's parties and 3-way kisses

In the car photoshoots on the way to the mall with my mom

Photoshop suprises.

Waking up late on blue and gold day and important days where we have to look cute.. TWO years in a row.

Poker nights.------- Many many more.

Uncountable inside jokes.

You're my little country girl AND my punk rock princess!

THE HOLDERS. --- haha enough said.

11:11 wishes at night.

late night talks that seem to never end.

heart to hearts.

we created "BFFFF" and you will always be my buff.

Toasted everything bagels with plain cream cheese

Wal*Mart at 7 am.

Seeing everyone at Tim Hortons at like 6 am

We WILL be college roomates

We WILL walk together at graduation

Froggy socks.

we are GEEKS. hahahahah

7th grade. Enough said.

You voted for the new girl. :)

---------------------who knew that the new girl was gunna be your best friend for fucking forever.

andshesperfect @ 2006-09-07T20:48:00

2006-09-08T00:49:59Z

guess who got wireless internet?!?!?

yea just guess.

andshesperfect @ 2006-08-28T01:41:00

2006-08-28T05:46:26Z

_{yes me and jake broke up.^{and yes it sucks.}i miss him but it wasnt working out.}^{we were fighting too much.}_{and he's in college and i'm in high school.}^{i miss this.}

_{so i am hoping to feel better soon. i feel like shit lately and i'm not exactly sure why.}^{maybe girl issues, who knows. but i need to feel better soon.}

Amanda Homer.

2006-08-23T07:02:39Z

This is Amanda Katherine Homer
She is 16 and is a junior at Imlay City High School, in Imlay City, Michigan.
Amanda has 3 best friends, Lauren, Jeff, and her brother, Daniel. They are her inspiration in life.
She has a beautiful mother, Rebecca
An amazing father, Kevin
And the best brother in the world, Daniel.
Amanda is very active in sports. She used to play basketball and soccer but is currently focusing on volleyball and running track(yes I am doing track this year)
Amanda has a passion for modeling and loves taking pictures(but not only of herself)
She has dreams of owning an auto body shop with her big brother.
Amanda loves driving. She loves the feeling of the windows down, the wind rushing through her hair, listening to music as loud as it can go, and singing to the top of her lungs (even though she sucks at singing).
Amanda loves to read, and also loves to write.
She loves to have in depth conversations with the people closest in her life.
Amanda plans on going to college and getting a degree in buisiness and marketing
She is not afraid to be herself in any situation.
She loves being the odd one and sticking out in a crowd.
Amanda loves meeting new people and giving first impressions..
Amanda loves when her friends come to her for comfort, she loves the feeling of making a difference in someone's life.
Amanda is a hostess at Big Boy and loves working there.
Amanda takes advantage of the lovely Michigan weather and dances in the rain whenever possible.
Amanda is constantly on the phone, she loves talking(to lauren the most!!)
Amanda has a journal which she keeps to look back on her thoughts, mistakes and strives to be a better person constantly.
She puts forth all her effort in everything she does.
Amanda sits on rooftops and watches the sun come up with her b.f.f.f.f.
Her favorite thing in life is being surrounded by the people she loves most.
She considers her family her friends because she can tell them everything.
She considers her brother her biggest hero
She thinks its amazing how much an older brother can impact a life, such as hers.
Amanda blares music in her livingroom and acts like she can dance.
She tries to make the best of every chance and opportunity that comes her way.
This is Amanda Katherine Homer

andshesperfect @ 2006-08-19T14:37:00

2006-08-19T18:46:08Z

my mom viewed my myspace and got pissed.
stupid.
she probably viewed yours too.
but i know she's not the only mom to do so.

i suggest changing our profiles to private.
then that way we dont get creepy stalker people.

andshesperfect @ 2006-08-01T02:11:00

2006-08-01T06:55:24Z

So everyone had their big splurges of telling everyone how they felt and mine just purely sucked. everyone elses were all so inspiring and nice and wow i loved 'em. mine sucked. so i have a few things to say to a few people.

jessica janda.
you are such a beautiful person and i admire you so much. you are not afraid of what other people think and you have been such a great friend to me since i met you. i love everything about you and i wish that when you looked into the mirror you see what everyone else sees. i just read through your last entry and i respect you so much that you can come out and say all of that. i wish i had the balls sweetie pie. you do. i love how you are one of the main people who i can talk to about the assholes that i fall for. i think that you have the potential to do anythign that you want with your life and i hope that we become closer these next 2 years of high school. i'm so happy that you'll be here at IC for them.

ally guiterrez
i wish i knew you much better. from what i know of you at the lunch table... you are quite the amazing girl. i'm happy that me and you are aquaintances. because... you are a priest. haha. i wish that we were closer and i hope that we become that way.

nina marcus-kurlonko
god, what to start off with nina... well i used to get annoyed of you cant lie... because you love to eavesdrop. but thats ok. because i love it no matter what. i love you no matter what. i love that you are different and are not afraid to be. yet again i wish that i was closer to you like we'd been. but i cant lie ... you are fun to party with. i mean "bonding" nights for the volleyball team were just crazy kids having a little fun drinking. lets party more. just a little less making out. haha

lauren camille leonowicz
you are my bffff. aka best friend for fucking forever. yea and thats our thing... only ours. god we rock. you and me are so much alike and sometimes its a little scary. but i cant lie i get kind of jealous when you hang out with jackie and i feel sometimes like i've lost my best friend. i admit i have a few jealousy issues but thats because i am a jealous person. i love you and i always will. you and me have so many memories that will never be replaced. we get put in the same situations. and its amazing how much that we are alike. you are the most beautiful person i've ever met in my entire life and you are the person who can do things to make me want to become a better person, whether its watching you go through a mistake or us watching myself go through a mistake... become stronger from these things that can tear us down. you have done some things to hurt me so deeply but its though these sort of struggles that make us stonger as friends. it strenghthens our friendship and its our friendship that is different than anyone elses. i hope that we stay like this forever and we have many more nights sitting on the rooftop talking about everything and anything we can think of.. i loved sitting up there with you till the sun came up. it was great. i love you.

andshesperfect @ 2006-07-31T05:38:00

2006-07-31T05:39:03Z

Six things you wonder about me
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.

Five things you like about me
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.

Four things you don't like about me
1.
2.
3.
4.

Three of my best features
1.
2.
3.

Two words that describe me
1.
2.

One question for me (ask away, I will answer honestly)
1.

andshesperfect @ 2006-07-30T22:45:00

2006-07-31T03:02:08Z

So in a way i'm stealing this from jessie who stole it from zach who stole it from another person.
but i'm only choosing 6 people off of my friends page.

1. you say that the reasons that you sleep around are because of your lack of confidence/etc. but you arent fooling anyone. especially me.

2. i admire you in every single aspect. your views on life, your intelligence, you are one of the most amazing people i know and i hope to see you for more than 2 minutes this summer.

3. some days i get extremely frustrated with you but thats ok cause you're my buff and i'll always love you no matter what. i hope you realize that you are an amazing person and no matter what i'll always love the heck out of you.

4. you've been a friend to me for as long as i can remember, lets keep it that way.

5/ you and me were pretty close at the beginnning of our sophomore year, what the hell happened?

6. as much as all the popular kids in your grade think its retarted... i respect your decisions of telling them that you hate 'em all.

7. you are different, and arent afraid to be. i love that about you.

8. you have so much potential yet you use your body to lure in guys and then wind up screwed over... your own damn fault

9. i feel bad now taht i know you had staples in your head that i wasnt there for you at warped tour. i would have been.

10. you have hurt me in ways that are undescribable, yet i always forgive you. i'm hoping that i'll always be able to forgive you but i'm scared that one day you might hurt me in a way that wont let me forgive you again.

11. i heard you talk about me. i hope its not true.

12. you are beautiful and you deserve a girl. but not an annoying one. hah you are fun.

13. i wish i knew you better, i have a feeling we could be great friends.

14. i get annoyed of your love of eavesdropping... but that ok because i still love you.

so if you didnt know....

1&8 go together
2&9 go together
3&10 go together
4&11 go together
5&12 go together
6&13 go together
7&14 go together

Truly Happy?

2006-07-23T04:08:22Z

So today was interesting. I was at work and it was all pretty gay. I think I got a dollar in tips (motherfuckers)
then I went to Kyle's open house. it was alright but I was just in a bad mood, plus I had to be home at midnight.

well for some reason mandy, myself... is not the happiest person in the world. and i have no clue why. i mean i have an amazing boyfriend, the best of friends, i dont know what it is.

i'm done with smoking. eff that. its an expensive habit that i dont need that will eventually kill me

something is truly buggin me and i dont know what the hell it is. i mean the more i sit and ponder, the more i get confused. what the hell? i'm just an emotional breakdown waiting to happen.

right now i dont want to be alone.

andshesperfect @ 2006-07-11T01:35:00

2006-07-11T05:38:56Z

To be honest, I just dont know anymore.

And You'll See Everything Happens For A Reason.

2006-06-05T01:17:56Z

So I've got a few thoughts running through my head after something I said to my mom and dad and after reading through my entries on here. So here it goes.

Today I came home with Lauren. And I was really pissed off because I couldn't get work off to go up north to Krissy's. Well, I came home and was talking to my mom. I was real upset and yelling. And then I was like "Ok I'm leaving." And my mom started to say "NO Mandy you arent gunna get in the car and----" Then I cut her off and yelled "Mom it's not like I plan on dying today." I should have chosen my words better. I knew what she was going to say. She was gunna tell me that I would drive crazy because I was pissed off. I wasn't. I believe that driving stupid is suicide right there. So my dad freaked out on me. He thought I meant by saying what I did, that I the thought of it crossed my mind and he made me give him my keys. Well, he calmed down and I explained what I meant. Because he got up and said "Mandy I've had to deal with more dead kids in my life then you'll ever know" And I should have chosen better words but even if I was in a bad mood I dont plan on driving stupidly. I plan on driving to calm me down. It does. And well, he gave me my keys back I drove Lauren home and then I got a monster and headed home.

So I change my clothes and get on the computer. And I was looking through my livejournal entries and there was one about how I woke up late and had a conversation with Jessica because she was home sick. THEN IT HIT ME.

Taylor and Gaspare a year ago. Every conversation I've ever had. Reading certain books(the five people you meet in heaven). A certain mistake. Losing my virginity. Getting caught with Brad a year ago ( a lot of good came out of that without having anything to do with Brad. Mostly about myself. I became stronger). Having my tires go flat. Having my car smashed on the side. Meeting and knowing the people I do such as Lauren, Jake, Jeff, Krissy, everyone. Drunken phone calls. EVERYTHING.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

I realized. Every experience you ever go through is life changing. The big things such as losing your virginity or having a loved one pass away, to the little things like waking up late and having a conversation with Jessica Janda.

SOMETHING SO SIMPLE CAN BE LIFE CHANGING.

And it is. If you use it right. No matter what you do. What you say. What happens. It happened for a reason.

andshesperfect @ 2006-06-04T20:47:00

2006-06-05T00:53:31Z

Your work here is done.

I love you Laur Bear.

andshesperfect @ 2006-05-29T13:17:00

2006-05-29T17:22:19Z

And you'll find everything you ever wanted in those unsuspecting places.

maybe a book.
maybe a person.
maybe a lie.
maybe a quote.
maybe a story.
maybe a piece of paper.
maybe the slightest phone call.
maybe a poem.
maybe a picture.

Maybe you wont ever find it.

maybe you dont deserve it.
maybe those people in your life, in the past, they were trying to show you that you dont deserve it.
maybe you dont deserve to be happy.

Maybe.

andshesperfect @ 2006-05-28T12:14:00

2006-05-28T16:15:36Z

I just wanna break you down so badly..

i n t h e w o r s t w a y

And I'm Tangled Up In You

2006-05-17T18:16:40Z

So today I wasn't at school because I woke up at 11:40 and talked to my mom for 20 minutes. Then took a shower. It was pointless to drive all the way to school and all the way back for maybe 5th and 6th hour. Especially when I'm always asleep in 5th hour anyway. So I get online and this one amazing girl named Jessica didn't go to school either. So we started talking online. Pretty deep conversation. And I got to thinking a lot. And I'm really glad I woke up late so I could have had that conversation with her.

Yesterday. I could have gotten in a car accident. I was bout 2 seconds away from getting into one. Both of my back tires went flat. I was losing control of the wheel. They had been going flat since before I even started driving. But they reached their breaking point yesterday. It was scary as all hell. My car was shaking and I was losing control... on a dirt road. Backroad. Winslow and Reynolds. I think I was gunna go to Lapeer and then my car started acting up so I decided to head home and took Winslow to Reynolds to Summers.

This got me thinking about Taylor and Gaspare and how scared of death I am. Then faith and religion played a major part in my fear of death.

andshesperfect @ 2006-05-16T21:07:00

2006-05-17T01:13:53Z

So Lauren and me are close again.
I wouldn't trade it for the world.
We are the same person I swear. Just two different bodies. And the hotter one gets more ass(Laur Bear)

Man ... juniors. Time is flyin by! I mean we'll be off to college soon. HOLY SHIT. Then legal drinking age. Then marriage. Kids. A whole life ahead of us.
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So why are we all caught up in the drama of ICHS? I mean 2 years from now it's not gunna matter. None of it. They say high school isn't about finding a husband, it's about finding your bridesmaids... I've only really been close with one person. And well.. hello maid of honor?

I hope that lately everyone has become more comfortable with themselves. Maybe I need to become comfortable with myself. I'm not. Not really.

Jam Packed Drama Festival

2006-05-16T20:23:47Z

freakin drama like woah.

new livejournal.

i wanted a different one.

i dont like some of the things i wrote on the mhomer one.

so here i am once again.

oh and p.s. screw greatestjournal.